Wednesday, April 27, 2005 ♥
Haiz .. Sobx :'( Sobx :'( ♥ 12:15 PM
Haiz .. todae feeling so sick .. went to sch to attend the morning assembly .. den finally cannot hold it anymore .. teacher asked me to go home lorhx ..
sobx :'( i m realli hurt .. sobx :'( heart break into pieces .. jesslyn & poh khee .. i treat dem so gd .. but dey .. curse me .. say i flirt .. n alot of bad things abt me .. n .. alot of people thought i m the bad 1 .. dey r the gd ones .. of coz .. dey haf gd reputation in sch .. coz dey r pretty .. how abt me ? i m ugly , fat .. well .. i dunno wat to sae .. sobx :'(
the worst thing is .. even him .. dun believe me .. saying dat i m at fault first .. haiz .. he doesn't even know dat .. dey haf been starting to talk bad things abt me since a few months ago .. i knew it all along .. but i pretend dat nth happen .. hoping dat this relationship wun break .. but .. it still break .. i m so useless .. dey curse me .. so i asked dem to shut up ..
dey accuse me of being a flirt .. m i flirt ? do i flirt ? haiz .. i feel very very hurt when i know dat dey sae me flirt .. sobx :'( ..
i haf eva wonder .. should i regret 4 steading with him ? should i ask 4 a break up ? haiz .. he doesn't understand me .. onli knows how to hurt me .. sobx :'( .. he isn't the person i know during the 1st day i stead wif him .. 1st day .. he very caring .. say alot of mushy words .. pleasing me .. but now .. haiz .. i dunno wat to sae .. he hurts me alot .. sobx :'( ..
haiz .. this post .. is a sad post to me .. please gif ur comments .. in the tagbox .. sobx :'(
Tuesday, April 26, 2005 ♥
Sobx Sobx :'( ♥ 5:04 PM
Todae my mood realli sux .. i scolded alot of people in sch todae .. haiz .. sorry .. i realli cannot control myself .. i m under too much stress .. problems ..
stead avoid me .. i m very very sad yesterday .. so i ask 4 a break up .. i didn't mean it .. but .. i was under too much stress .. sorry .. i realli love u .. dun leave me ..
frens .. haiz ~ all bad mouth me .. i very very sorry 4 scolding u .. i m guilty .. sorry .. jesslyn & poh khee .. i didn't mean to scold u .. sorry .. i m realli realli under too much stress ..
todae i cried in art room .. not coz of my ankle's pain .. is .. my heart pain .. i feel very very sad .. all over alot of matters .. happen in 1 day .. haiZ ~
i realli realli love u .. but if u wan break up as i requested .. sorry .. i dun mean it .. i m juz too sad .. haiz ~
LoVe HuRtS ~
Sunday, April 24, 2005 ♥
Happy Day 4 Miee ~ ♥ 7:39 PM
Todae is quite a happy day 4 miee ~ i very very happy todae .. but not feeling well ~
todae me & him 1 month liaox lorhx ~ so fast rite ? 1 month past in a blink of an eye time ~ kinda of feeling it as very very fast .. during this 1 month .. coz juz stead ma .. so still gt feel a little bit of pai seh lorhx .. hahax ~ erm .. went out dating also .. quite fun too ..
hmm .. during the past few days .. nothing much happen .. hmm .. let me recall if anything happen during the past few days ~
On mon .. haf IT lesson .. wan to post de .. but horx .. teacher keep on looking at me .. den me dun dare to post liaox .. monday also kenna stay back by dat mdm wong .. ask me alot of rubbish lorhx .. mon's time pass very very fast .. hahax ~
tues .. haiz ~ sianz .. haf art .. hate art man .. i nv do any art work .. coz me lazy to do art work .. juz received news dat guo lao shi going back to study le .. sobx :'( .. her age is much more nearer to us .. n she know us better .. our personal problems can tell her de .. she will gif advice ~ she damn good .. i will miss her if she go de .. hope dat day when she go .. we can take a photo of us together ..
weds lehx .. very fun .. coz alot of people cuming my house .. to do projects .. but actually is cum to play larhx .. 'project' is juz bluff bluff de .. hahax ~ those people who cum r : Yan Soon , Wee Tiong , Jesslyn , Fen Mien , Poh Khee , Sayang , Wei Haw .. No more le bahx .. haf fun at my house .. yan soon was sleepy .. so he slept at my brother's bed lorhx .. hahax .. den .. dey left at abt 5 - 7 pm like dat .. not so sure .. coz all of dem leave at different time marhx .. hahax ..
thurs .. wa .. quite a happy day for me .. can't remember wat happen on dat day lehx .. hahax .. we haf awhile of footdrill .. to practise 4 the promotion ceremony on sat .. quite fun lorhx .. i was quite naughty .. lazy to learn ..
fri .. haf chinese calligraphy .. but sneak away to go 4 footdrill .. but eventually .. it wasn't successful .. mdm wong saw us .. ask us to go back .. haiz ~ den after awhile .. we asked ms loh 4 permission to go lorhx .. den she sae .. 3.30 muz see us le .. den .. of coz we didn't turn up larhx .. hehex ~ den .. at abt 4.30 .. the lesson end liaox .. yay ! dun need to go .. but it was quite fun lehx .. den .. still gt 1 h 30 min to go back to rulang .. den .. yan soon n company going to fu hua sec .. speech day .. den me , yayan & beanice go follow dem .. yan soon ask me go with dem .. but me dun wan .. den .. hmm .. went inside .. saw alot of rulang peeps .. miss dem .. den .. was told dat no place 4 us le .. den no choice .. leave fuhua lorhx .. den me , yan soon & ya yan .. take the route back to rulang .. den .. the company take the other route .. during the walking time .. me haf a gd talk with yan soon .. ya yan keep on saying she is light bulb ..
sat .. the day for promotion ceremony .. woke up quite early in the morning .. to go get my first badge .. bumble bee .. reach sch at abt 7 .. den found out dat sch gate not open .. shit .. den .. saw jerron , beanice , smurf , yu xuan & marcus at the bus stop .. den go dere lorhx .. den .. wait wait wait .. den .. wee keong cum le .. den we go to the side of the canal to practise marching .. me onli go c .. den .. at abt 7 plus plus .. gate open finally .. den .. blah blah blah .. den .. alot of people promote lorhx .. APL , SPL , ASPL , PL .. n some other rank lorhx .. almost all senior were promoted .. wee keong was promoted to APL .. zeng jun as PL .. jerron as APL .. n some other type of rank .. den .. heidi as APL too .. coz of a new patrol F .. den .. yan soon was promoted to SPL .. congratulate to all of dem lorhx .. den dat stupid yong ren .. keep on calling me SPL fu ren .. shit him .. den salute me .. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr .. was quite angry ..
sun .. which is todae .. nth to do .. earli in the morning .. saw him online .. den chat wif him .. for a few minutes .. den me gtg liaox .. go out .. den .. he call me in the afternoon lorhx .. chat 4 abt half an hour .. hmm .. todae gt nth to post lehx .. maybe post later ..Buaix ~ Muaks ~ ntEz ~
Saturday, April 16, 2005 ♥
Unlucky Day ♥ 9:23 AM
Wa .. So long I never update le .. No time to update lorhx .. Was very very busy with homeworks & projects .. So stress sia ~
Yesterday was my unlucky day .. Alot of unlucky things happen to me at one day ~
In the morning yesterday ... was having PE lorhx .. den we did gymnastics for the 2 period of lesson .. Was quite fun though .. But .. got 1 part not fun .. I hurt my backbone .. It was very very pain .. I almost cried .. Still hurts alot now .. Aww ~~
After recess , dunno wat happen to the Ms Anita .. siaox de she .. ask to see my handbook ~ to see if i haf copy homework into handbook ma .. I nv of course .. coz i can remember wat hw to do .. She SUX lorhx .. she go n throw my books .. bag .. take books under my table & throw it all over .. This is the first time my books are being throw all over .. No teacher had did this to me ! Ms Anita .. u better remember wat u haf done to me .. I will remember this incident & hate u 4eva .. My best fren , Fen Mien , also kenna .. She like mad dog .. keep on scolding her .. I curse her till die lorhx .. den .. when she was scolding me .. My tears wan to flow out le .. But I control lorhx .. Den when she leave the class .. I cried .. And i realli did .. I cannot bare le .. Shit her !
Den after school .. stay back lorhx .. coz got scouts marhx .. actually yan soon wan to pei me 1 .. but .. mr kum ask him to do this do that .. den cannot pei me le .. luckily gt lennon they all .. stay in class & pei me .. anot I will realli be bored to death lorhx ..
Scouts was a torture yesterday .. The training was realli realli tough .. We did footdrill .. as we cannot get it correctly .. Keep on repeating .. alot of times .. den after dat .. gopi say .. seperate & learn .. wee keong & gang take 1 group .. den .. yan soon & gang take 1 group .. I was in the Gopi's group .. but i dun wan .. he very fierce .. c him I scared le .. I wan to be in yan soon group .. Den .. coz of a person's fault .. den kenna pumping in the road .. My hand bleed lorhx .. Pain sia ~
Den .. we learn marching for the investiture .. i dun really know how to march .. make alot of mistake .. but now .. i can do it le .. den .. justin cum lorhx .. we fall in too slow le .. den kenna scolded .. run around the hall 4 2 rounds in 10 seconds .. wa .. den we didn't manage to run of coz .. 10 seconds onli lehx .. den yesterday was release very very late .. Haiz ~ cannot go 4 the campfire todae .. Sobx :'( Cannot c him le .. Miss him alot lorhx ..
Anyway .. yesterday when i gt home .. sleep 4 awhile .. den c him online lorhx .. den chat wif him till 10 ++ .. the conversation was realli fun ~ He was sad coz I cannot go to the campfire lorhx .. I cheer him up .. He was okay le bahx .. Todae he gt camp .. cannot c him 4 2 days .. Sobx :'(
Anyway .. I haf stead liaox lorhx .. He is .. Yan Soon larhx .. all of u should know le bahx .. Whole scouts troupe know abt it le .. Even Mr Kum .. & some teachers .. I so pai seh lorhx .. Haiz ~ This morning wake up .. Whole body pain .. Going to be sick soon ~ But he say I cannot be sick .. Later he heart pain .. Hmm .. I muz try to be strong le ..
Hahax ~ This post should be very long bahx .. Gtg le .. Maybe post later ~