You’re always on my mind

All day just all the time

You’re everything to me

Brightest star to let me see

You touch me in my dreams

We kiss in every scene

I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days

I’ll love you till I die

Deep as sea, wide as sky

The beauty of our love paints rainbows

Everywhere we go I need you all my life

You’re my hope, you’re my pride

In your arms I find my haven

In your eyes my sea and sky

May life be our love paradise

I”m cold when you aren’t home

Lost and all alone

Please promise you’ll be there

When I can’t see through the clouds

My heart beats just for you I smile, I cry for you

I wanna hold you tight and tell you how I feel

dis song lyrics is love paradise de..

sang by kelly chan..

specially dedicated to him..

but too bad..

i dunno how to put songs on blog post..

sho u cnt hear..

anywaes..

it's specially ferr u..

muackx!!

ytd haf thumbs up..

very very fun..

enjoyed myself..

learn alot also..

gt alot of shuai ge..

hahahax..

ying quan was 1 of dem..

anywaes..

the whole programme end at abt 1.30 like dat..

den we go get email from the trainers..

i haf email from amelia , gladys , dawn & ying quan..

also haf hp no de..

hehex..

den end of programme..

me , huiwen , sook yee & poh khee..

go taman jurong CC dere eat..

go dere c the merlions first..

can't find mine lehx..

nvm larhx..

go eat noodles..

but very dry..

dun realli like it..

in the end..

the whole bowl like nv touch b4 like dat..

hmm..

den dey all sae i waste food..

paiseh..

den went to huiwen's house..

take smth ferr zeng jun..

den go back sch..

huiwen hand up donation draw tickets..

den me & sook yee was playing..

acting as tze hsien & jesrene..

but it was fun larhx..

den left sch..

went swing..

go buy food..

hahax..

den we all late le marhx..

run all the way to lakeside MRT..

go change into full u..

a little bit late..

but sir nv scold..

den took 98 go..

at bus dey all sae jokes..

hmm..

den reach hong kah le lorhx..

the campfire at hong kah sec was realli fun..

but it was more like a campfire light more den a campfire..

cox the fire fake de marhx..

use red light & wind onli..

but overall it was fun larhx..

cox our troupe onli gt sec 1 go..

16 of dem..

hehex..

overall I/C is lennon..

he realli lead us very well..

gd leader..

hahax..

den we were very enthu ytd..

cox no seniors marhx..

den sir & mdm was like very happy wif us..

cox of our performance bahx..

the gateway was scary..

cox it was kinda of like a staircase..

but the steps r higher..

n it looks scary..

n when u climb it..

u will haf a scary feeling..

but fun lorhx..

but very little troupe go onli..

gt taiwan scouts also..

den when sing songs dat time..

we realli sang it very loud..

den we alwaes nt at our seats de..

alwaes run out de..

den boys & gals together..

united horx?

hahahax..

hold hands also..

FUN!!!!

too bad the seniors miss the fun..

hahax..

den after dat..

the campfire end le..

at abt 9 like dat..

campfire ended le..

den sir praised us..

n hope to c us like dat next time..

hehex..

dunno if can anot larhx..

but hopefully can..

den..

me, beanice, sook yee, huiwen..

rush to taman jurong swing..

i went dere to c sylvester de..

hehex..

he sho HANDSOME!!

ahhhhh..

i love him =)..

den yan soon & zeng jun..

go bluff me sae sylvester go le..

stupid de..

qian da..

den mummy & daddy cum n fetch me..

cox dey at kallang marhx..

den i haf to wait ferr dem..

hahax..

reach home quite late le..

den chatting wif yan soon at SMS..

hehex..

den sleep at abt 12 smth..

going to 1 le..

ytd sir nv scold us lorhx..

hahax..

hmm..

nth to post le..

later think will be going to funan it mall..

hmm..

post tml lorhx..

buaix..

muackx!

hmm..

now very early ehx..

i woke up sho early..

no larhx..

later haf thumbs up..

now still haf time..

den cum n blog lorhx..

cox nth to do..

anywaes..

was feeling very happy ferr the past few daes..

jux no time to blog..

alot alot of shweet things happen..

realli feel very very happy..

feel very loved..

but dun wish to sae wat the shweet things arhx..

hehex..

thanks ferr everything guys..

well..

later would be quite busy..

no time to rest de..

thumbs up end at 2..

den nt going home le..

cox no 1 free to bring me home..

den go shopping wif sook yee, poh khee, huiwen..

hmm..

maybe will haf somemore pple bahx..

den after dat straight away go hong kah sec lorhx..

cox haf campfire..

dunno to go to lakeside MRT first or go hongkah sec..

c first bahx..

den going to swing..

at taman jurong dere..

dunno can c sylvester anot..

i wan c him..

hehex..

maybe will end up going home late..

anywaes..

if haf time..

i'll post tonite..

buaix every1..

muackx to him..

muackx..

well..

recently feeling very sad..

cox of dat image..

it keeps on appearing..

dunno y..

haix..

todae haf normal sch lesson..

quite sianx lorhx..

haf science project to do..

haix..

afetr sch went ferr scouts meeting..

haf campfire on saturdae..

also haf thumbs up..

will be quite busy lorhx..

plan nt to go home after the thumbs up..

campfire at hong kah sec..

sianx larhx..

den jux now went westmall wif wee tiong , yong ren & yan soon..

go dere 1 storey walk 1 round..

hahax..

lame..

spend abt dunno how many minutes onli..

hahax..

den saw eckerene lorhx..

long time no c le..

hahax..

den he pei me go home lorhx..

on the bus was realli sad..

den he was at dere cheering me up..

thankx..

den reach house le..

he pei me walk awhile..

den cox realli sad marhx..

den i go hug him lorhx..

but awhile onli..

den went home le..

haix..

jux can't forget the stupid image..

i also dunno y..

sobx..

haix..

now realli scared..

simply cnt overcome the fear of mine..

haix..

sad sad..

nth much to post le..

buaix..

muackx every1..

shweet dreams..

sianx lorhx..

sho cum here n blog..

since nth to do..

actually haf larhx..

tml gt science test..

abt cells..

also haf ying yong wen to do..

watching my fishes grow bigger den ytd..

felt realli happy..

but..

todae gt 1 died..

cox too hungry..

left 6 more..

nvm..

i will take gd care of dem de..

hehex..

dey r swimming freely in the water..

felt realli happy..

think dey r beginning to gt familiar wif the surroundings..

felt happy..

hee..

dey r my bao bei..

hahax..

cute cute de..

hmm..

dunno wat to post le ehx..

blog tml..

buaix~

todae went jurong sec sch lorhx..

ferr the Jurong District Field Dae..

nt realli fun..

reach dere at abt 7.15 like dat..

hahax..

almost late lorhx..

went dere with sook yee & meiling..

by taxi..

wa hahax..

den go JSS den canteen..

big lorhx..

at least bigger den YCSS..

den i xin qing nt gd..

me & sook yee volunteered to help out at the stalls..

the cadet scouts was real cute..

but some of dem was kinda of rough lorhx..

hahax..

den i go pick up balls..

run here run dere..

till very very hot..

hahax..

but fun lorhx..

den telematch start le..

haf to go field..

den go 1 stupid insect go in my skirt..

i jump up n down lorhx..

den cry..

sobx..

den wee tiong still go throw smth at me..

cry againx..

sobx..

den sook yee angry wif me..

den after awhile..

ok le..

haix..

moon nt gd..

feel like crying ehx..

haix haix..

den prize giving..

all the top earners from our sch de..

hahax..

den haben released..

still at dere hear tat yong sir talk talk..

sianx..

den my mummy cum le..

cox she angry marhx..

wait sho long..

cox i need to go out marhx..

den i was allowed to go off lorhx..

hee..

my mood todae realli sux..

m i dat easy to bully huh?

how cum alwaes kenna bullied de..

sobx..

dere is no 1 dat can stand up ferr me de..

sobx sobx..

haix..

hurt le..

haix..

todae de me super sad..

i dunno y..

u all may think dat i m happy todae..

but actually..

i m nt..

i m sad in fact..

i dunno y..

no mood to eat anything..

but still gt eat recess & lunch lorhx..

force myself to eat de..

cox realli dun haf the mood..

haix..

haf science lesson ferr the first period..

the cheeks & plants cell realli sux..

er xin dao yao ming..

den haf D&T..

i do the acrylic do till wan cry le larhx..

haix..

den recess..

manage to force myself to eat..

den chinese..

quite fun larhx..

but i haf no mood..

den english..

i den dun care wat the teacher sae ehx..

at dere do my own thing..

den after sch le..

went to take donation draw tickets from my mummy..

she asked me to quit scouts..

but i dun wan..

den i go ask HIM..

den he ask me nt to quit..

i dunno wat to do..

i also dun wan to quit..

but..

haf to persuade my mummy le..

den go weigh newspapers..

with jesslyn, poh khee, wee tiong, mingsheng, sook yee, sayang..

first time sho many pple go weigh newspaper lorhx..

i also first time go..

den also stayed back ferr the commitee member meeting..

cox mdm wong ask me stay marhx..

den stay lorhx..

she asked me nt to care the newspapers first..

do the basking ferr the national dae first..

sianx norhx..

but i will still continue to do the newspapers de..

cox quite fun..

hehx..

den haf scouts..

haf footdrill..

gt telematch..

gt P.I.C..

haix..

nt fun..

cox dun realli haf the mood..

n dunno who go put me to play the candle thingy..

i dunno how to play lorhx..

i dun even know how to light up a matchstick..

ask me go light up candles..

hahax..

tml sure c me diu lian lorhx..

1 candle also cnt light up de..

confirm de..

haix..

tml haf district field dae lorhx..

sianx..

dun feel like going..

no mood to go anywaes..

feeling very sleepy le..

gtg sleep le..

ntex..

todae was nt a happy dae ferr me..

i feel hurt..

i dunno y..

feel very very hurt..

wan to cry out againx..

do u think dat it is worth to cry ferr some1 u like?

i somehow think dat it is worth it..

but..

i haf cried sho many times ferr him le..

nth much to sae..

hurt hurt hurt..

once againx..

nth much happen todae..

went collect newspaper after school..

with poh khee , li zhen , wee tiong & HIM..

actually sook yee tagging along de..

but becox li zhen going..

den she dun wan go le..

haix..

todae when he talk to me..

i was somehow nt used to it le..

n somehow feel a little bit shy..

i dunno y it happens..

n when he put his arms on me..

i was like abt to melt le..

my heart..

going to melt anytime..

realli feeling like pain..

dunno y when he put his arms on me..

i felt pain..

n i was reminded of the past..

i dunno y..

haix..

den collect newspaper till abt 4 like dat..

went back to sch..

do D&T hw..

den was abt to go home..

den christine ask me go help dem do the styrofoam board..

den i do lorhx..

with poh khee..

den poh khee leave sch at 5 something..

i & lennon pei her wait ferr bus..

den go cheers buy smth to eat lorhx..

hungry marhx..

cox nv eat lunch & recess..

dun realli haf the mood to eat even though haf mass run in morning..

now still can feel the pain..

n hurt..

dunno y..

hope when he c dis post..

dun get angry..

i didn't mean it..

n i left the sch at around 6..

with jesslyn, beidi..

den walk to rulang..

feel realli realli moody..

realli need euu at dat moment..

but u cnt be dere..

haix..

sobx..

realli feel like crying..

again..

i dunno y..

sobx sobx..

haix..

buaix..

ntex every1..

muackx..

well..

as the title saes..

i m at my father's office..

slacking around..

doing nth lorhx..

hahax..

no larhx..

actually mux do work de..

clean up the whole office..

but i very lazy larhx..

sho cum here n slack lorhx..

hahax..

miss him sho much ehx..

love euu lotx lotx..

morning SMS him..

but he haben wake up ehx..

hahax..

den i go disturb him wake up..

i very bad ritex?

bleahx =PpP

hope euu dun mind horx..

realli sorry horx..

but think u should be used to it le bahx..

cox i used to wake euu up de..

hahahax..

dun angry worhx..

kkaess?

realli pai seh horx..

if u dun wan me to ka jiao euu..

mux tell me kkaess?

den i dun ka jiao euu le..

let euu sleep sleep..

hmm..

haf to go do work le..

post againx later..

when i go backx home..

if i haf time larhx..


me name..

weird anot arhx?

nth to do..

sho go make my name lorhx..

hahax..

wa..

feeling so sianx againx..

on saturdaes i alwaes sianx de..

haix..

nth to do ehx..

jux now chat wif him at SMS lorhx..

disturb him from doing flag dae..

hehex..

i very bad ritex..

miss him sho much..

haix..

gt wat thing ferr me to do ehx?

no hw doing the weekend..

except ferr the art..

haix..

den jux now did some cleaning lorhx..

den help my maid do the wan tan..

i like to eat..

hahax..

wat thing to post ehx?

daes r quite fun ferr me larhx..

ytd scout's meeting fun lorhx..

nt like last time..

sho boring..

learn quite alot of skills also..

hehx..

but ytd raining..

sho cold lorhx..

wish he could hug me..

he ytd also very busy..

me & kor relationship like getting closer le..

kor & mei 4eva worhx..

hehex..

but recently..

he cried lorhx..

i knew the reason..

but den he was ok le..

den becum my turn..

sad things & happy things all gt happen during the pass few daes..

but sad things more..

cry quite alot of times lorhx..

no 1 realli know lorhx..

onli kor & poh khee know lorhx..

dey also confont me..

realli thankx dem lorhx..

anywaes..

nth much ferr me to post le..

jux feeling sianx..

buaix..

i know dat i dun stand any place in ur heart anymore..

i know u no longer love me..

by the answer u gif me..

can explain all..

though i can sae dat i m realli hurt..

deeply hurt..

i cnt care wat u wan to do..

u do wat..

i dun haf the zi ge to care..

so..

anything u wan..

i dunno..

jux wan to tell u..

i realli love u..

i realli do..

love u even more den i love myself..

if u dun believe it..

i haf nth to sae..

but deep down in my heart..

u will alwaes be rank first..

no matter wat..

u will nv be replace..

4eva..

never eva be replace..

i love euu..

i will still continue to wait ferr u..

even if u dun wan wait ferr me le..

love euu 4eva..

muackx..

well..

as my blog title state..

i m crying while blogging..

realli hurt..

should i transfer sch?

hurt hurt hurt..

LOVE realli SUX..

SUX alot..

i m realli hurt..

haix..

no mood dis few daes..

i m alwaes crying silently at home..

in sch..

u all c me happy happy de..

but actually..

deep in heart..

i m crying..

haix..

no 1 knows how i realli feel..

even my close fwens..

dey onli know part of dem..

realli hurt..

in sch..

pple alwaes bully me..

let dem bully bahx..

no mood to react..

haix..

let dem bully bahx..

love realli hurts alotx alotx..

n i haf change to another person..

realli thankx wee tiong, sook yee, fen mien, jesslyn,poh khee,huiwen..

dey realli help me alot..

thannkew..

time maybe can heal wound up..

but mine..

it wun de..

feel like commiting suicide..

he dun understand how i feel..

he onli knows abt him..

how he feel..

n..

i onli know how to care ferr others..

but nt myself..

i cnt help myself..

sobx..

wan to explain smth..

i cried ytd is nt becox of wee tiong hit me..

actually nt pain de..

but i was jux lying..

i cried becox i m hurt..

sorry ferr using wee tiong..

realli sorry..

hope u wun blame me..

haix..

hurt is 1 word dat i can describe myself..

no 1 knows how i realli feel..

n he onli thinks dat he is much more stress den me..

sobx..

ytd cum back from camp lorhx..

ferr campfire de..

was very very tired lorhx..

at the same time..

angry lorhx..

make us stand ferr sho long..

the campfire arhx..

okok larhx..

but nt sho nice lorhx..

dunno y..

was nt in the mood lorhx..

n i was appointed to usher pple..

from the gateway to the seats..

with christine, nadhini..

actually horx..

christine quite gd de ehx..

realli ehx..

she realli gd..

i under her..

in guestbook..

she also nv expect us to do alot alot of things..

hehex..

end up alwaes slacking..

didn't sleep well on fri nite..

sleep at onli 4 ++..

cox helping out the gateway..

haf problems marhx..

hmm..

den didn't realli eat well..

cox the food realli sux..

end up nv eat at all..

dinner was quite gd on sat..

better den the pizza..

hmm..

den me & wee tiong , fernando..

chatting when during the ushering..

hahahax..

quite fun de larhx..

hahax..

den todae morning wake up at 11 ++..

den sleep at 1 again..

woke up at 4..

i pig ritex..

cox realli tired marhx..

hehex..

now also tired..

haix..

dunno gt wat hw ehx..

hehex..

going to sleep soon againx..

hehex..

pig pig..

ytd reach home at 12 like dat..

hmm..

after a refreshing bath..

love it..

hehex..

nth much to post le..

buaix..

backx to post againx..

nv post ferr 3 daes le..

ytd haf swimming lorhx..

fun ehx..

next week will haf againx..

learning free style..

i sux at it lorhx..

hahax..

hmm..

can sae dat it is very fun lorhx..

time pass very fast also..

reach home at abt 8 ytd..

left the complex at 6.45..

den go buy things to eat..

cox hungry marhx..

dis week broke le lorhx..

hahax..

haf to save $$ liaox le..

dunno ferr wat ehx..

jux save lorhx..

hahax..

daes r quite okae ferr me..

EXCEPT ferr dat STUPID MS CHONG lesson..

hate her..

wth lorhx..

her lessons like hell like dat..

boring till like wat..

ms anita better..

dat stupid ms chong..

todae at dere zi kua..

sae..

my skin very fair..

wat complexion very gd..

at dere curse us ehx she..

wth lorhx..

den..

alot of pple sleeping at her class..

even vice chairman & chairman..

at class eat sweets..

she also dunno..

stupid stupid de..

fen mien sae..

her hair..

n her face..

dong gua tou with half a watermelon on it..

LOL...

a gd word to describe her..

LAME..

hahax..

den todae haf maths lorhx..

hahax..

forget to sae smth..

todae dat ms chong..

stupid stupid de..

vikram & yong ren go bluff her sae dat scouts mux go at 1.45 at the meeting..

she realli go dismiss us lorhx..

stupid like hell..

hahax..

den we go downstairs slack lorhx..

went ferr the meeting after dat..

on the campfire briefing..

i was in guestbook de lorhx..

sianx arhx..

separated from sook yee..

sobx sobx..

den take consent form lorhx..

staying overnite..

haix..

sianx..

den..

mr kum at dere scold pple lorhx..

i was at dere laughing..

hahax..

giggling bahx..

cox his expressions was funny..

LOL LOL..

den after meeting..

go c those doing pioneering de lorhx..

go talk to em' lorhx..

hahax..

den abt 4.30..

me n sook yee left the sch lorhx..

haf a gd chat wif her todae lorhx..

hahax..

sho long nv like dat le..

anywaes..

gtg le..

buaix~

will post again soon..

i m crying now..

i dunno y..

crying out loud..

i slam the door..

life seems bad ferr me..

i realli need euu..

but u cnt be wif me..

i miss euu..

i need euu..

i love euu..

but u alwaes cnt be wif me..

when i need euu most..

i need euu now..

but u cnt be wif me..

i m left alone here..

crying..

sobx sobx ='(..

i haf bear ferr a long time le..

it's time dat i could finally cry out..

loud..

i m hurt..

a lonely gal..

a sad gal..

i cnt haf happiness..

sobx sobx sobx ='(..

backx to post againx lorhx..

well..

nv post ytd cox very tired marhx..

sleep after dinner..

den wake up at 9 smth todae..

hahax..

ytd hai hao lorhx..

haf lessons in the morning..

did experiment on acid & alkali..

den i go smell the acid..

cox curious marhx..

den horx..

i almost faint lorhx..

very smelly..

den use bunsen burner to cook the purple cabbage..

cabbage soup?

hahax..

but it did smell like cabbage soup lorhx..

then after all the experiment..

end science lesson le..

den D&T teacher nv cum..

haf relief teacher..

we all at dere talk lorhx..

den recess..

dun feel like eating marhx..

den go c pple run recess run..

with poh khee, fen mien & jesslyn..

den we also join dem run..

awhile onli..

hahax..

den haf chinese..

fun lorhx..

hahax..

den english..

wa sianx..

dat STUPID ms chong..

dunno haf wat medicine..

at dere teach den pple can sleep de..

almost whole class sleeping lorhx..

her lessons boring like hell..

den heck care..

i sleep lorhx..

hahax..

mdm wong better..

but also sleepy larhx..

den..

end sch liaox..

den me, poh khee & jesslyn went JP lorhx..

cox i still haf time b4 scouts marhx..

den pei dem go lorhx..

but..

end up i almost late ferr the meeting..

thought fall in at 2.45..

den i reach dere at 2.48 if i not wrong..

run lorhx..

wa..

den notice change time le..

becum 3..

qi si wo lorhx..

den meeting is abt learning journey de lorhx..

first station is knots & lashings lorhx..

wee keong & fernando teach us lorhx..

den fernando teach me lorhx..

haf alot of fun wif fernando..

at dere laughing at him..

hahax..

den i qi si him lorhx..

hahax..

den next station is first-aid...

learn abit of first-aid lorhx..

den after dat is outdoor cooking..

cox me no mood marhx..

den dey cook lorhx..

me n sook yee wan sleep le..

den..

when stand up dat time..

sway lorhx..

kenna hit by soccer ball on the stomach lorhx..

PAIN lorhx..

but i at dere sae nt pain..

cox dun wan any troubles..

den tears at my eyes lorhx..

going to flow out liaox..

den nv cry larhx..

den 30 seconds go 1T1 classroom..

cox stomach pain marhx..

den cnt run too fast..

but still reach dere in time larhx..

den the sing-a-long session..

cox realli pain..

den no mood lorhx..

den those leading the sing-a-long session de..

at dere scold here scold dere..

force us to partner boy..

den sook yee angry lorhx..

almost cry lorhx..

den we both no mood..

cox of smurf larhx..

haix..

dun wish to sae anything abt it..

den flag break le..

haix..

den go home lorhx..

den of cox..

i cry like hell..

haix..

well..

i m going to do my things liaox..

buaix~