cb lo.
i hate dis kind ob life.
all mii fwens.
fine lorhhs.
i tink eben if i transfer nobody will care bahhs.

n to u.
ask u go out.
dunchh wan.
fine lo.
eben fwens also cnt b riitex.
den fine.
up to u la.

back frm camp.
nth much to describe abt it.
it sux.
haiish.
mii nxt year class.
nth to sae abt it too.

haiishh.
i miss u damn badly when i was in da camp.
haiishh.

suppose to watch death note todae.
end up watch rob b hood.
gt da tym wrongly.
haiish.
no choice lorhhs.

den went kfc eat.
cox we all v hungry.
i eat v slow.
den yt ask mii eat faster.
anywaes.
went wib yongren.mingsheng.yaotian.

da movie was nice.
yeah.
da baby was cute larhhs.
touching too.
but didn't cry.

u all wan sae i flirt jiu sae lorhhs.
i realli cnt find any1 to go wib mii.
sho go wib boys lorhhs.
who wan sae mii let u all sae lorhhs.
wat can i do?
nth.

mayb sat i alone go watch death note bahhs.
haiish.

seriously.
when i c u wib zhikai's stead.
mii heart turns sour.
can feel da jealousy.
i knw she ishh zk's stead.
but jux dat.
i hab dis veryy veryy weird ders feeling jiu shi lers.

dunchh no larhhs.
nw i do wat also no use lers.
i knw we all gt no mre hope.
jux let tym heal mii bahhs.
dere ishh nth i could do.
but i still miss you alot.
love you alot.
sae dis nw also no use.
haiish.
T-T heartbroken.



hmms.
nth better to do at home.
anywaes.
ytd last minute went to bugis.
hohos.
wib alot ob pple!
5 boy 1 gal.
lol.
yongren.shawn.jacemon.tzehsien.yaotian.fenmien & mii.
hohos.
alot bahhs.
went to fetch fen mien wib mii papa at her hse dere.
den off we went to je.
papa dropped us off at je.
den buaiix buaiix. (:
lol.
den we took mrt to bugis.
yongren was dere already.
ke liann arhhs him.
12.3o at dere luhhs.
yaotian deyy all still at lakeside.
around 2.3o liddat deyy reachh lers.
suppose wan watch death note wan.
budden dey reach late sho we didn't went lers.
but nbm.
still gt chance. (:
den dey went to eat.
while fm n mii went to buyy bubble tea & tako.
hohos.
den after dat meet again.
went to walk walk walk.
went to watsons bought tinks.
den went alot ob place.
n i bought mii ripples flip flops!
mwarkkkkkkkkks. (:
nice nice!
brown colour wan.
$15.9o
v nice larhhs.
love it alot.
hmmms.
later going out again.
to vivocity i tink.
wib family bahhs.

going out realli make mii forget all mii hurts.
but when i m back home.
those hurts r all back.
haiish..
still miss him narhhs.
but no choice lorhhs.
since liddat i mux accept fact lers.
nxt sat go malaysia.
mayb china!
den nxt month i go hatyai.
mayb niia.
go lers dunchh no can come back anot.
cox hors.
dere gt bomb b4.
zzzzzz.
den dec go japan lorhhs.
should b quite fun bahhs.

hols r coming.
book mii out! =D
make mii happy bahhs.
anyones interested in da cultural nite?

seeing you nowadaes at schh quite happy.
i m rather happy too.
thurs was da last dae dat i could c u.
u said u dunchh wan to c mii.
den i will grant ur wishh bahhs.
i will disappear in front ob u.
jux to make u happy.
i m willing to anytink fer u.

haiish.
after hearing all those.
i m hurt once again.
i dunchh no y.
but i feel very hurt.
on the way hm jux nw.
tears jux flow dwn.
i couldn't forget those daes when we were tgt.
those memories.
everytink seems difficult.
i hurts.
v v v v hurt.
upon hearing all those tinks.
i dunchh no y.
mii heart break.
haiish.
i dunchh no wat to do.
other den crying.
i knw its mii fault.
everytink ishh mii fault.
every single tink..

miss those daes dat u call mii pig.
miss those thurs dat u r alwaes wib mii.
miss da district campfire whr u r dere.
miss those shweet sms dat u alwaes send.
miss those kisses.
miss thoses hugs.
miss ur voice.
miss those shweet little tink dat u sae.
miss da donation draw camp.
miss da campfire camp.
miss da daes wib you.
I REALLI MISS YOU!

tml jiu shi last dae i can c u lers.
haiish.
fri no nid go sch.
sat no scouts meeting.
sun nth better to do.
mon go esplanade whole dae.
tues no sch.
weds - fri camp.
i cnt c u lers.
haiish.
i sure miss you alot alot alot alot ders.
cox nw i m already missing you damn loads.
alot alot alot alot.
whole mind full ob u can.
haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
will you come back?

i miss you.
mii heart misses u.
can u c dat?
i realli miss u alot.
i nid you..
dis few daes without u.
i gt no mood.
i lose weight.
arnd 2 kg.
i gt no mood to eat.
todae we broke up fer 1 wk lers.
haiish.
seriously i realli miss u.
mii heart dunchh no fly to whr lers.
though mii tears hab dried up.
but i still cry.
i dunchh no y.
i couldn't b strong.
hoping you could come back..
bcox i nid you.
i dunchh no whether u still lyk mii.
whether u still hab feelings.
but all those memories u gimme.
it makes mii hard to forget.
i realli wan back everytink in the past.
can i?
i regret fer everytink i hab done.
saying breaks..
i regret lers.
come back can?
i realli nid you..

jux gt mii new specs.
but wun wear it soon.
later den wear.
haiishh.
dis few daes.
mii heart dunchh no fly to whr lers.
miss him terribly.
pple mayy b sianx ob mii post.
cox all abt him.
up to u all bahhs.
wan c or dunchh wan c.
up to u.
dunchh lyk jiu fcuk off.
haiishh.
will he come back?

我知道总有一天他一定会变心。
虽然他说他不会再有另一个。
但是我知道这一切的一切都是假的。
我能怎样？
哭也哭够了。
眼泪都干了。
但他却没回来。
我能怎样？
等待。
是一个方法吗？
我也不晓得。
就这样。
一天又一天过去了。
我对他的思念还是一样。
就是忘不了。
这几天。
日子过得很痛苦。
但我也没办法。
只能过一天。
算一天。
也许。
这样会令我更加珍惜他。
但一切都太晚了。
希望它能给我一次机会。
我一定会好好地珍惜。
不管怎样。
我还会在这儿默默地等待。
希望这一天回来。

人人都觉得是我的错。
我也非常赞成。
后悔莫及了。
但也没有用了。

回忆。
我真的忘不了。
心感觉到一阵阵的刺痛。
我就是这样。
谁也拿我没办法。

只能这样。
尽量使自己开心。
就算不开心。
都要开心。

死也不是办法。
看着我的朋友。
家人。
令我觉得死只回令他们伤心。
就这样。

我会等你回来的！

haiishh.
hols r coming n soon u will forget mii.
i m scareddd.
haiishh.
but wat to do?
u wun come back..

haiishh.
i dunchh no wat to do.
wat u do nw ishh jux hurting mii heart.
i can onli cry n cry..
been crying alot lers..
haiishh.
wo fang bu xia.
wo zhen de fang bu xia.
i m hurting sho much here..
yet u?
u r laughing..
u didn't cry.
u r laughing.
u realli forget mii lers..
u realli forget lers.. ):

went to ur fwenster.
n i saw u change mii name.
u change everytink.
i m veryy veryy sadd. T-T

haiishh.
earlii in da morning woke up at 6 plus again.
went jogging..
to ease mii problem..
haiishh.
i MISS him.
i realli do..
wo hen xiang nii.
i wan u back..
jux sae u still love mii n i m happy..
i knw when u c ur fwen gt stead u sure go findd another wan ders..
i dunchh wan dis to happen.
i dunchh wan..
):
ytd went to bugis.
at home anyhw tink n was crying.
tinking ob all da past.
i feel lyk crying again.
but mii tears were driedd up.
1st ys.2nd wt.nw u..
y mux hurt mii?
i knw i sae break alot..
haiish..
wo huo hui lers.
gimme another chance..
pls.
u dunchh wan mii to sms u..
but i miss u too muchh..
i miss u alot..
realli miss u.
if ishh bcox ob fernando.
i can tell u i dunchh lyk him..
i onli love u.
come back can?
jiu suan shi wo qiu ni.
i m scared u go find another gal den mii?
alone crying here..
i realli miss u..
i miss our past.
can we start anew?
i miss everytink..
tinking abt da jurong district cf..
at 1t1 classroom.
je library..
mii classroom..
i cnt bear to gib u up..
i realli cnt.
deep in mii heart i m missing u alot..
but u?
u dunchh miss mii..
i knw wan.
i knw soon u will go find another cox u dunchh feel hurt at all..
haiishh. T-T

心碎的感觉是非常痛苦的。
我知道是我的错。
但是我是不小心说出口。
我知道你是不会原谅我。
就算我再怎么做。
一切都是没有用的。

haiish.
sleepless nite ferr mii.
suppose normally i can slp till v late..
nw i cnt lers.
i dunchh hab da mood.
i realli miss him alot..
he said he wun sms mii anymre..
n askk mi to stop smsing him.
but wat i do ishh jux onlii to save dis relationship.
i knw its too late.
haiishh.
but i cnt c dis 7 mnths.1 week.1 dae ders relationship.
jux gone liddat..
y?
y mux u leave mii..
i knw its mii fault.
fer saying break sho many tyms till u cnt bear it mii anymre..
but i've gt mii reasons.
first few tym i askk ferr break ishh bcox ob mii parents..
after dat ishh bcox i wantedd ur care..
i thought its useful.
u caredd ferr mii.
but 2 daes later..
everytink changedd back to same again.
haiishh.
i thought break ishh da onlii way dat u can care ferr mii again..
but i was wrong.
everytink was wrong.
i did it all wrongly..
thoughh mii fwens askk mii to gib up..
i cnt..
its v v difficult.
morning we were fine but suddenly..
everytink changedd.
u said u dunchh mindd being hurt byy mii.
i knw i hurt u alot ob tyms.
but u do hurt mii too..
y u 1 chance also wun gimme?
jux once..
i quarrel wib u bcox ob a game..
ishh bcox u lie to mii..
u said u didn't play audition.
yet u can lvl up sho fast.
isn't dis a lie?
y can't u jux b truthful to mii?
i m angry nt bcox u won mii.
ishh bcox u liedd to mii.
mayb i m unreasonable..
haiishh.
but tink ob our past.
we were v happy..
in da library..
jurong east wan..
rmb?
i knw u hab forgotten already..
still gt job week..
those memories.
i realli cnt forget it..
no matter wat..
pple mayy nt believe wat i sae.
its up to dem..
i wan u backk.
i realli nidd you alot..
i onlii wan a last hug..
but u askk mii find another boy n hug.
u knw liddat..
can hurt miii alot..
i already said b4.
i DUNCH LYK other boys..
i onlii wan u backk.
ishh dat v difficult?
u said u still love mii.
but y u dunchh wan to patch?
u tell mii y?
u ren mii v long i knw.
but if we could start anew.
i assure it wun happen again.
its true.
but u dunchh believe mii anymre..
u said u wantedd to b alone.
i dunchh believe.
u will soon go findd another gal..
i knw wan.
u saidd b4..
if i shall leave 1 dae.
u will holdd on to mii tightly n nb let go.
but nw?
no..
u forget wat u sae.
u sae treat everytink as empty promises..
y?
i dunchh wan it to happen.
its all mii fault.
i guess i wun b able to overcome dis.
which i knw i WUN!
i cnt forget u..
come backk to mii side..
will u?
u wun.. x[ T-T
haiish.
sho long ders relationship gimme destroy.
but i did ask fer a patch da moment i said break.
everytink was too late.
its jux another 5 mre months to 1 year..
nw u also dunchh eben wan to patch n gimme a chance..
u also sae u wun talk to mii.
i guess i can onlii c u frm far far behind..
wib dis broken heart ob mine.

pple who wan to sae mii fault.
jiu sae bahhs.
i dunchh care anymre..
if saying mii could make him return to mii side.
i dunchh mindd letting you all sae umpteen tyms.
wan to sae i flirt.
sae bahhs.

i knw he wun readd mii blog or mii secret blog anymre..
haiish.

sryy fernx.
todae suppose to go out wib u.yii.yee to bugis to celebrate ur bdae.
but i dunchh hab da moodd.
enjoy urself..

WO ZHEN DE HEN AII NII!
HUI DAO WO SHEN BIAN KE YI MARHHS?
WU LUN RU HE.
WO SHI BU HUI FANG QI NII DERS.

COME BACK PLS!
I REALLI LOVE YOU!

IN THE PAST 24 HRS HAF YOU...
1) Cried: Yes.. v v long.. T-T till nw still crying..
2) Worn jeans: Yes..
3) Met someone: Yes..
4) Done laundry: Nah.
5) Went hungry: No Mood.
6) Talked on the phone: Yes..
7) Said I love you: Yes.. To SomeOne Who Dunch Lyk Mi Anymre..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
8) Yourself: Yupp
9) Your friends: Yupp... Of course...
10) Tooth fairy: ... [What's that??]
11) Destiny / Fate: Yupp
12) Ghosts: Yupp
13) UFO: Nope

FRIENDS AND LIFE...
14) Do you ever wished you had another name? No..
15) Do you like anyone?
16) Which of your friends acts most like you? ?
17) When you cried the most who was there? mii fwens.last tym him.nw no mre.
18) What's the best feeling in the world? no mre feelings.
19)What's the worst feeling in the world? heart pain.
20)What time is it now? 6.14 pm..

WHICH IS BETTER...
21) Chocolate or vanilla: choc.
22) Coke or Pepsi: coke.
23) Love or Lust: heartbreak.
24) Sprite or 7-Up: sprite.
25) Girls or guys: both.
26) Scruff or Clean shaved: stupidd.
27) Movies day or night: dae.

THE LAST TIME YOU...
28) Took a shower: morning.
29) Cried: jux nw.ytd.5 hrs - 6 hrs.

WHO...
30) Makes you smile: nw ishh difficult to smile.
31) Who can make you smile no matter what: same as above.
32) Has a crush on you: dunchh care.dunchh bother.
32) Are you in love right now: heartbreak.

DO YOU EVER...
33) Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call: yeah..
34) Save AIM conversations: ?
35) Wish you were someone else: yeah.
36) Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: nah.
37) Go online for longer than eight hours: yeahh.
38) Stucked in a lift: no.
39) People you dont know and you went out with them: no.
40) Hate a person to the core that you wish that he/she will die immediately: no.
41) Swear your parents or siblings: no.
42) Read comics until you cry: no.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
43) That you saw: mii mum.
44) You talked to: christina.
45) You hugged: dat melody..
46) Instant messaged you: ?

DO YOU...
47) Color your hair: no.
48) Have tattoos: no.
49) Have piercings: 2
50) Have on lipsticks: no.
51) Own more than 10 pairs of flip flops: no.
52) Like someone:
53) Hate someone: yeah.
54) Have any money on you: piggy bank.

Layer one - On the outside
Name: Ng Wan Ning
Birthdate: o8o51992
Current status:
Eye color: black.
Zodiac sign: taurus.

Layer two - On the inside
Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears:
Your weaknesses: alot.

Layer three - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your first thought when you wake up: sadness.
Your bedtime: sadness.
Your most missed memory: past.

Layer Four - Your Pick
Mac or KFC: dunchh no,
Single or group dates: dunchh no.
Adidas or nike: nice tink she lyk.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton Tea
Cappucino or coffee: cnt drink.

Layer Five - Do you
Smoke: no.
Curse: yeah.
Take a shower: yeahh.
Have a crush: yeahh.
Think you've been in love:
Like school: yeah.
Want to get married:
Believe in yourself: nah.
Think you're a health freak: yeah.

Layer Six - In the past month
Drank alcohol: yeah.
Gone to the mall: yeahh.
Been on stage: nah.
Eaten sushi: nah.
Been dumped:
Gone skating: nah
Dyed your hair: nah.

Layer Seven - Have you ever
Played a stripping game: siaox.
Changed who you were to fit in: sumtyms.

Layer Eight - Getting old
Age you are hoping to get married:
I LOVE:
I FEEL: sad.
I HATE: david.yunmei.ohjiao.
I HIDE: mii saddness.
I MISS: him.
I NEED: him.

List 5 persons which you want him/her to take this quiz:

anybody..


haiish.
its gone.
EVERYTINK ishh gone.
heart broken.
sho wat if i love u alot?
nw den i knw u gt no mre feelings left..
hw i wish onli u could sae den we can patch..
ur feelings nb fadedd.
reality hurts.
y mux it b u?
to hurt mii?
seven month plus ders relationship.
sae leave jiu leave..
u alwaes sae i hurt u..
den u gt tink ob when u hurt mii marhhs.
u haii mii bill broke..
i gt blame u?
no..
den when ur hp bill broke.
u blame mii.
haiish.
u should knw y i cnt go out wib u..
i wanted to go out wib u..
but hab u eber tink?
wat ishh da conquences?
i care fer u.
sho i choose nt to go out wib u.
nw?
no nid lers..
sae break jiu break.
haiish.
1st ys.
2nd wt.
3rd u.
wat hab u promisedd mii?
nt to leave mii..
wat's dis nw?
SHIT!
to u.
i m jux lyk a dog..
i do wateber u command.
i care fer u..
i love u..
but u?
hab u eber care fer mi?
i alwaes sae break ishh jux becox i wan pple to care fer mii.
u didn't care fer mii..
talk to u on fone..
u choosedd to talk to ur fwens.
call u.
1 hr.
45 mins u talking to ur fwens..
ni you xiang guo wo ders gan shou marhhs.
nw break lers.
u jiu come n blame mii..
haiish..
when u online.
all u do ishh go play maple..
i quarrelled wib u cox ob a game..
ish becox u lied to mii.
i hate pple lying.
u promisedd nt to lie..
n yet u still did..
y mux u do dis to mii?
jux no feelings.
n u can leave mii?
hab u eber tink hw much hab i fork out in dis relationship?
no..
though mii tears keep flowing dwn when i type dis.
i wan to continue it..
haiishh.
jux dis..
NO MRE FEELINGS!!
u tell mii.
hw to forget u?
u sae larhhs.
hurt mii sho deep.
i cry gt usedd?
u also wun b backk..
u r heartless.
i wun hate u fer dat..
i WUN get into relationships.
nb eber.
haiishh..
shang hai lers wo.
ni bu hui jue ders can kui marhhs.

i've gt new specs.
hohos.
again.
dis tym its half frame.
ah hahas. (:
shweet pink in colour.
hope wun get caught.
left usedd to b 2oo n right 2oo.
nw left 175 n right 2oo.
but refractive disorder.
frm 5o become 175.fer left.
n 5o to 75 on da right.
hohos.
i hab already cancelled a maths & bio frm mii wish list.
cox i cnt get in already.
maths paper 2 SURE flunk.
CONFIRM 1oo% chop chop.
its damn fcuking difficult can.
stupidddddddddddddd teacher who set it.
no wonder a maths onli nid 65 go in.
siianx narhhhhhs.
can cry liaox.
new blog open!
cheer up alwaes. x]