WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ` !
i`m sick again .
like so fast larhhs can .
LOL !

2nd post for today (:
mugging shall start tomorrow !
uber tired now .
my eyelids are damn heavy larhhs .
but never mind ,
i shall endure till 1o + .
with my sicknesssssssssss :D

currently copying POA things ,
shall get going now ! (:
byeeeeeeeeeeeeees ` !

loads of misses ?
=\

chinese paper 1 & 2 today .
wrote question 1 & 4 .
paper 2 was like shit .
the passage seemed easy .
but ,
when u read the stupid questions given .
it`s like shit can ?
SO DAMN DIFFICULT LARHHS !

i think i will either fail or get a C5 again .
hais .
my chinese has been deproving since i`m in sec 3 .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ` !
so damn stress larhhs !
listening comprehension dis friday ,
hope i can score well .

feeling so tired now .
i think i`m going to fall sick soon .
cause ,
i have been having dry cough .
T-T

tomorrow is a holiday !
finally ,
i got a time to rest again .
have to do a lot of things .

` Physics TYS
` Physics MYE
` Filing for Maths / POA / SS / English
` A Maths TYS
` SS Essay Qns
` Re-do POA for test
` Copy geography notes

still got loads of stuffs ,
but i just can`t seem to remember them .
haissssssssssssssssss .

exams are coming like so soon larhhs !
2 more weeks ..

oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ,
he msg me today !
wishing me good luck for the chinese paper .
surprised larhhs :D
& happy ?


woke up at 7 + in the morning .
all thanks to my parents .
i REGRETTED having a queen size bed .
dis morning ,
they each took one side ,
sleep on it .
& start to tickle me !
i couldn`t bear anymore and finally ,
i woke up .
T-T

went to boonlay for breakfast .
damn full larhhs .
walk walk around .
after dat ,
went jurong west .
my 2 sisters wanted to cut hair .
while waiting ,
my mother , brother and me .
went to jurong west market .
went venus and i bought loads of things dere :X
hahahah .

reach home around 11 .
had tuition at 11.15 .
learn natural log , changing of base & a maths coordinate geometry .
finally ,
i understood natural log & changing of base .
but ,
i don`t understand coordinate geometry .
RAWR !
will have tuition on the following dates :

o4.o5
o6.o5
11.o5
13.o5
15.o5
17.o5

after dat ,
i`m FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
went to causeway point with papa today .
took MRT dere .
he damn funny can ,
got car don`t want drive .
say want take MRT cause never take before .
LOL !

walked walked around and bought a pair of shorts .
bought ink cartridge & eraser refill .
den went to took his phone from nokia .
after dat ,
train-ed to bukit batok to take his car .
hahah .

going to bath soon .
dis blog is causing a lot of trouble .
izzit due to over sensitive or what ?
i don`t wish to know or care anymore .
attitude & more .
i have enough .
wat u think of me .
suan lers .

hais .
next tuesday jiu shi my birthday lers .
sure nobody remember or will care ders .
suan lers bahhs .
going to delete away the celebrate at sentosa on my birthday ..
hais .
going to have a lonely birthday dis year again .
xi guan lers bahhs .
hais .
never mind bahhs .
treat as i say nothing .

shall end here lers .
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee`

the distance is getting further and further apart .
everything is like happening so suddenly .
i don`t know how to lift myself up again ,
after all those hurts / sadness .
just treat everything as my fault now bahhs .
saying more things will only cause more misunderstanding / troubles .
i don`t know what`s happening now .
whose the good person ,
whose the bad person .
wat should i do ?
hais ..
i guess ,
i just have to pave a way out for myself bahhs .
nobody can help me .
it`s just so complicated .
life`s never perfect .
those sweet memories are all over .
i`m left with those bitter ones .
yes .
damn bitter ones .
i only have myself to depend on now ,
to lift myself up ,
and to continue with my journey ,
the rest of it .
how i wish ,
someone will be there for me ..
but it`s like so impossible ..
realities hurt ,
but i have to force myself to accept it .

hoping that i will get the real birthday present that i wanted .
only i know what i wanted .
nobody can give it to me .
i don`t want anyone`s help .
& i mean it .
i got it last year ,
though sick ,
but i`m happy .
i don`t think i will have it this year again .
cause nobody will remember it .
it`s not one ,
but two .
jiu dang wo mei shuo guo bahhs .
hais .



had tuition till 1o+ ytd .
learn changing of base .
don`t quite understand .
after i send the teacher to my gate ,
i went to slp :X

woke up at 7 today .
bathe and cleared my rabbit`s cage .
yup .
went up ,
packed my bag and off to bukit batok .
ate breakfast dere with my papa :D

after dat ,
went 7 eleven to buy newspaper .
papa buy me a lollipop ! :D
<333333333333333333s !

then ,
he drove me to lakeside and i alighted .
met up with huimin and walked to school together .
was supposed to take the POA test .
but mrs goh said after the remedial .
hahah .

remedial in the air con room .
so damn damn cold .
ended at around 11.3o .
did the test .
i think i can pass it .
last minute forget everything .
T-T

train-ed to jurong east .
was the first to reach :D
met yiting and went to change .
then ,
kailin the tu tou came :X

ate at kobayashi ..
the library was full .
RAWR .
kaixin came to find us .
hahah .

left je at around 3 .
went to westmall .
the 2 tu tous bully meeeeeee .
RAWR .
hahah .

papa fetch me from westmall at around 5 .
went to old house .
took my things ,
&&& back home :D

gonna bathe lers .
still got a lot of things haven`t do .
i need more time .
i`m beginning to feel stress lers .
hais .

having tuition tommorow again .
11 - 1 .
after dat ,
gonna mug the whole day :D

alright ,
shall get going now .
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ` ! :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~
hold my hand and lead the way ,
i`m lost .

YES ,
NEMO SUCKS .
I SUCKS .

I JUST SUCKS .

those tears just drop & drop ,
nobody cares .
everything is just like shit .
i`m tired of showing my fake side .
i`m tired .
FCUK OFF LARHHS ME .
YES ,
I SIMPLY HATE MYSELF !

forget to bring the chinese ws today .
luckily ms ker never scold me :X
physics lesson .
reflection , refraction , total internal refletion .
i still don`t understand what is denser and less dense .
dead meat =\
who can teach meeeeeee ?

co-ordinate geometry test during maths lesson .
don`t know will pass anot .
ms wong gave us a lot of clues .
she even teach us how to do lorhhs .
so good (:

ate milo nuggets during recess at classroom :X
did report writing .

AHHHHHHHH .
i just realised dat i`ve left my POA notes &&& my report writing outside the general office table .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
how how how ?
it`s gone ..
T-T

LOL !
i just found it :X
ah hahahah .
ki siaos .

ok ,
continue (:
train-ed to westmall .
lunch at mos burger .
not bad .
LOL !

walked around westmall .
going to buy the small small zinc bag when my sister gt the membership card :D
saw dat converse bag .
don`t think want to buy (:
but it`s light narhhs .
haha .

parents drove me home .
heh :D
suppose to have tuition at 4 .
but the teacher change it to 8 .
think will end at around 1o bahhs .
late leh .
but never mind (:

POA remedial tomorrow ,
follow by library with yiting , kaixin & kailin .
my 2 tu tous :X
hahahah .

alright ,
shall end here :D
CHEERS !

don`t feel like saying anything here .
don`t know is that call attitude .
yes .
don`t bother what i said .
unless you`re guilty .

back to blog again .
361st post (:
school ended quite fast today .
was with huimin :D

POA remedial dis saturday .
1o - 12 PM .
of cause ,
i will go .
ah hahahahs .
either going swimming or to the library after dat .
ah hahah .

stars @ ycss for assembly today .
quite funny narhhs .
haha .
den went for briefing for the first class district training camp by tat yong sir .
i think it will be very tough .
still need to learn command all dis .
die liaos .
i dun dare to talk to so many people in the squad ..
T-T
&&& i dun even know how to speak malay language larhhs .
dead meat !

going for the camporee from 25 - 27 may .
den zoo on the 28 may - 2nd june .
so so busy &&& tiring .
hais .

lunch at kobayashi and train-ed back home (:
going to have a bathe now .
after dat ,
will be doing a maths homework .
tuition tomorrow ! :D
waves * ` !

AHHHHHH !
having weird weird feelings .
jealousy ?
i don`t know ,
& i don`t which to know !
T-T

didn`t went to school today ,
wanted to go in the morning ,
but ended up with a headache .
so ,
decided not to go to school .

my father came into my room in the morning ,
he asked me how i am feeling .
so sweet larhhs .
:D
ILOVEYOU larhhs ! (:

woke up at around 8 dis morning .
surfed the net till around 8.3o and went to wash up .
hahah .
had my breakfast after dat ,
did my homework at my living room downstairs ,
as i cannot resist the temptation of using my computer .
copied my chemistry notes too ! :D

cleared my rabbit`s cage after dat ,
she`s so naughty larhhs !
but cute :D

currently doing the 4E/5N prelim paper dat ms ker gave us on monday .
so so so chim .
i dun even understand wat izzit talking about :X

3o.o4 ~> Chinese 1 & 2
11.o5 ~> English Language 1 & 2
14.o5 ~> Mathematics 1 & Comb Humanities (SS)
15.o5 ~> Comb Humanities (Geog) & Science (Chem) 3
16.o5 ~> Mathematics 2
17.o5 ~> Science (Phy/Chem) 1 & POA
18.o5 ~> Add Maths & Science (Phy) 2

going to bathe soon ,
den continue with my revision & filing .
next monday will be our mother tongue cluster paper .
like so fast can ?
hoping dat i could at least achieve a B3 to my C5 grade for MYE .
planning to draw up an exam timetable for me to revise and go accordingly .
haha .

alright ,
shall get going now .
byeeeeeeeees ` !

nobody knows how much i miss you .
nobody knows how i truly feel .
i hope that someone could share my feelings with me .
but ,
everything just seems to be so impossible .
i only have myself to depend on .
i wonder how long i can depend on myself ,
just hoping that i won`t collapse once more .
if not ,
i really don`t know what to do anymore ..
Sigh ..

didn`t went to sch today ,
was sick .
whole body pain .
surprisingly ,
my fish also never go school .
hahaha !

went to the doctors ,
den went to causeway point to repair my papa ders n73 .
after dat ,
went bukit batok to eat my all time favourite ,
sliced fish claypot noodle soup (:
nearly vomited while eating ,
dunno why .
dere`s problem with my stupid tagbox again .
RAWR .

i have ample time to do my work :D
like so finally ?
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee ` ~

counting down 13 more days to my birthday ! :D
&&& next monday is chinese MYE le .
jiayous jiayous !
i think i can do it (:

ok ,
shall go and do my things lers .
byeeeeeees ` ~

how i wish dat u could care for me ,
but everything is just so impossible ..

failed by 1 sec for 2.4 .
ms chai say if i passed my 5 items tomorrow .
she help me negotiate with super hon :X
:D

banana nv come today = no f&n
ms ker got guzheng SYF = no chinese lessons !
woo hoo ~
sleep from 12.15 to 1.3o .
1 hour 15 minutes :X
nobody disturb me too .
so shuang ~
15 minutes is from geography lesson ders :X

sians narhhs .
nothing much to post today eh .
LOL .
ok narhhs .

things dat i need to do today :

` filing for maths / geography
` copy geography notes
` ss webquest

ok .
shall do them now .
byeeeeeeee ` ~

不知道为什么 ,
心理感觉很不自在 ..

just ate finish my lunch .
haha .
felt so full .
yum yum ~

nearly fell asleep while having tuition ,
but i still endured with my tiredness and continued keeping my eyes opened as big as possible .
haha .
recap on indices & exponential equations during tuition .
learnt log & surds too .

gt lyk around 4o qns and more than that of a maths qns for me to do as homework .
ten years series & textbook .
i`m dead .
haha .
having tuition again on friday .
from 1 week 1 time become 1 week 2 times ,
due to exams are coming .
T-T

dere are still loads of stuffs that i`ve not completed yet .

` English TYS
` Physics TYS
` A Maths TYS + Textbook
` Copying of chemistry / geography notes
` Geography Workbook :X
` F&N Coursework ( 4 recipes .. )
` Filing of Maths / English / POA / Geography / SS files
` E Maths Exercise
` Memorise POA
` Social Studies Webquest

it`s 15 more days to my birthday .
haha .
think it`s gonna be like last year bahhs .
alone as i`m sick .
not surprised even if i have a lonely birthday ..

less than 3 more weeks to mothers day .
i think i gonna get a present for my mother nxt week ,
as i dun tink i gt the time to shop for it cause exams are coming .
haha .

alrights ,
i shall end here ,
b4 dis post become too long-winded :D
ciaos ` ~

just hoping that you could send me a birthday msg like what you did last year .
but i don`t think i`ll be able to receive it as everything have change .
i`ll not be surprised even if i nv receive ur msg ..

a very very tiring day today .
met up with huimin and walked with her to the school .
mrs goh was late for the POA remedial .
haha .
she gave us M&M chocolate again .
thanks loads (:

had POA remedial till around 8.5o .
still gt a bit dat i nt really understand .
but i tink i will read up on it myself (:
must memorise !
:D

den went for flag day at jurong west market .
HAHA .
i earn 6o cents nia :X
do for one hour .
den ciaos ~

slacked for 1o - 12 .
haha :X
was late for the SJI Games Day .
lost our way .
if i know earlier ,
i would go dere even later .
go dere sit at dere do nothing .
zuo bo nia .
stupid sia .

DAMN DU LARHHS .
dun wan say anything abt it liaos .
RAWR .

chiong home after dat ,
reached home around 7.3o .
bathe and went out again .
so tired can ?

go bukit merah eat .
actually i no need go wan lorhhs ..
make me go dere half eat half sleep ..
left halfway through the dinner .
reach home at around 11.1o .
wash up & immediately go off to my lala land :D

oh ya ,
its sunday today .
but i`m putting the date as saturday :X
alright .
tuition time (:
byes ` ~

我一直都在 ,
你身后等待 ..

yay !
it`s like finally ,
i managed to pick up some time from my hectic schedule .
i cut my hair (:
haha .
though it looks abit kuku .
but i like it .
cause it`s like ,
not so thick anymore ~
wa hahah .
&&& i cut my fringe too .
much more shorter .
better than my long fringe ,
cause it`s very difficult to write with long fringe .

sch was quite fun today .
gossiped a lot with huimin .
haha .
damn funny too larhhs :X
had oral today during english class .
preparing to fail or get a just pass score .
cause i was like ,
huh , uh , i dunno leh .

it`s expected anyways .
haha .
lunch at Jurong KFC .
haha .
den headed for my haircut ! :D
bus-ed to bukit batok .
walked walked around .

i`m going to buy the hair treatment thing at watsons .
&&& also a lipstick or lipgloss for my mother as mother`s day present .
still dunno wat colour to choose .
haha !
nxt week , nxt week !

i still haven`t find time to go down to orchard .
need to repair my spoilt watch T-T
now ,
i`m using my sister`s .
haha .

exams are coming soon .
go go go !
it`s another tiring day tomorrow .

8 - 9 ~> POA remedial .
9 - 1o ~> Flag Day .
1o - 12 ~> Eat / Change up .
12 - 5.3o ~> Games Day .

homeworks / things to do :

` Physics TYS
` Copy Chem notes
` Copy geography notes
` A Maths exercise
` Maths Filing
` Geography WB . LOL ! {drag & drag & drag}
` Social Studies Webquest :X

AHHH ~
it`s another full saturday .
alrights ,
gotta go bathe ,
n start to do my a maths again ! :D
bye ` ~

我根本都没忘记你 ..

today ders mood still okok ..
but also not very good .
dunno y ehhs .
hais .

morning went for breakfast wib my papa .
den he dropped me at lakeside mrt .
walked to sch with yiting .

didn`t sleep at sch today ,
awhile during chinese lesson bahhs .
den assembly ,
student council investiture .
ya .
didi ,
dun sad liaos .
bu yao xiang tai duo ..

after sch ,
was supposed to do webquest .
but cancelled due to no computers ~
AHHHH .
den mr lim say monday can hand in ..
ok lorhhs .

went bb after dat ,
bought my ink cartridge ..
den went burger king ,
bought fries and bus-ed home .

now blogging .
totally no mood .
hais ..

我总觉得你在躲避我 ..
我不懂为什么我会有这种感觉 ..
也许是我想太多了吧 ..
不想再管 ..
但是不知道为什么我的心一直在你那里 ..
不知道该怎么做才好 ..

back to post again ..
haha ..

didn`t sleep in sch today .
though i was tired .
except during ss .

after sch went to find mrs goh for POA remedial .
but couldn`t find her .
RAWR .

my eyes are half closed now .
OMG .
but still ,
i wun sleep .
shall go do my a maths again .

no mood to post .
buaiis ` ~

我不知道自己想要什么 ..
希望自己能够开心一点吧 !

just had a bath ,
so refreshing (:
it`s the best time to study now :D

POA lessons today was alright .
didn`t fall asleep .
maybe a lil bit bahhs :X
was doing POA & E Maths at the same time .
haha .
lesson time passed quite fast too .

den geography .
no lessons .
just webquest .
got 14/2o .
lowest for my group as i was sick .

nth for maths .
den jiu recess .
b4 dat ,
asked yiting helped me buy famous amos :D
ate during lesson time .
physics also nth to say .
den maths again .
den jiu social studies .

after school went lailai kitchen eat .
den went home .

going to study for tomorrow`s chem test , f&n test .
also going to photocopy chem notes as it`s messy to me .

today de mood nt good ,
so nt much things to post .
shall end here .
buaiis .

其实我一直都在 ..

hmms .
just got home not long ago .

school was so so today .
f&n .
go through protein test paper .
&amp;&& i got 14/15 :D
after dat ,
did project at library .
cold until i can fly ~

den PE ,
i failed my 2.4 with flying colours ! :D
as i overslept today :X
forget to set my alarm clockkkkkk .
ah hahaha .
den didn`t eat breakfast (:
den chiong out of house .
luckily not late :D

so long since i ate during recess le .
hahaha .
eat full full den go haf geography lesson .
damn sians larhhs .
i dun even understand wat`s she talking .
gonna fail my comb humanities liaos .
hais .
haf to copy notes myself .
sians .

den jiu chinese ,
ms ker was damn angry today larhhs .
maybe all of us looked tired .
but but but ,
i didn`t slept today at her chinese lesson .
i`m ohsogood :D
* give myself a pat on my back .
hahaha !
she scolded us ,
n left early .

den chemistry ,
gt back test paper on covalent & ionic bonding !
i pass i pass !
wheeeeeee ~
i thought i`ll fail .
just pass nia larhhs .
11/2o :X
but was happy liaos .
was released at 2.3o .

went to find dat meh meh .
i wanted to go for the camporee .
but i gt zoo .
so i told him .
den he say he will speak to mrs ho .
RAWR .
si meh .

den had carbohydrate test in the staff room .
took 5 minutes to finish :D
suppose to haf oral ,
but i decided to take it on weds/thurs during lesson time instead .
bought nuggets &amp;amp;amp;&& the dunno wat to eat .
&&& the grass jelly .
yum yum ~

den den den !
i saw my PE shirt &amp;amp;&& my praying thing .
WHEEEEEEEEE ~
it has been with me for around 8 years ?
ya .
wheeeeeeeee !
&&& through 'fate' ,
i found it :D
elated larhhs (:

den went je library with yiting , zhirong & kailin .
hahaha .
went to find the stupid recipe book .
but didn`t managed to find any !
RAWR .
dun care .
left at around 4.1o ,

went to westmall .
met the online seller and paid for my pre-order stuffs .
haha .
den went to comics connection .
zhirong n kailin want c fahrenheit de things .
hmms .
after dat ,
left and went to mac .
had chocolate sundae & medium fries .
i`m a pig larhhs .
eat eat eat ! :D
gonna turn fat .
had loads of fun .
haha .
den bought mac for my sister and cabbed home :D

needa do TA , maths & copy f&n notes by today .
shall bathe now and start to do them .
buaiis ~ (:

am i able to forget ? i doubt so =\




my reflection taken at home :D

wat i wore out (:
shall end with me smiling (:

hahas .
today was lyk .
damn high larhhs !
HAHAH .
keep on laughing non-stop .

had tuition in the morning .
recap on simultaneous equations , polynomials &&& alot more .
learn indices too .
time past quite fast too .
msg a little bit .
LOL

after tuition ,
used computer awhile den bathe .
papa dropped me at westmall .
met dat crazy penguin and off we went to je .
haha !

ate at kobayashi ! :D
eat till halfway ,
dolphin came .
waited for her to finish her food .
and had loads of fun :X

walked to je library .
haha .
was doing lame things :X
went to the 2nd floor and hunted for my books .
borrowed 2 ,
1 on chocolate and another one on banana !
haha .

den went back to jec .
bought waffle :D
yum yum ~
walked to popular after dat .
bought a maths assessment book , ruler & eraser .
haha .

after dat ,
walked back to jec again :X
need to photocopy something .
haha !

train-ed to bukit batok .
went comics connection .
bought a farenheit poster for my sister .
den went to buy bubble tea :D

went breadtalk after dat .
bought bread and depart .
LOL !
mummy came and fetch me home .
wheeeeeee ~

today was so crazy larhhs :x
HAHAHAHHA ! :D
laughing non stop ..

hmms ,
can`t upload any pictures .
RAWR :D
haha .
it`s 11.24 now .
LOL .
i`m still chatting onlineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

alrights ,
shall end here :D

trying to be happier and happier each day .
but i still cannot stop myself from thinking of u .
hais .

just came back home .
scouts dismissal at 2.3o for sec threes .
camps are coming soon .
AHHHHH ~
alot of activities .

1) flag day + game day nxt saturday .
2) first class standard training camp for all sec 3s (18.o5.o7 - 2o.o5.o7)
3) jamboree (25.o5 - 29.o5)
compulsory , i`m interested too . but i gt zoo ~
4) CIP zoo (28.o5 - o2.o6)
5) donation draw camp (o1.o6 - o3.o6)
6) annual camp
7) campfire camp .

ah hahah !
mid year exams are also coming .
OMG OMG OMG OMG !
scared larhhs .
mug , mug , mug .
haha .

scouts meeting was so so today .
both PL & APL didn`t attend the meeting .
so i`m the 'PL' for this meeting for my patrol .
sad to say ,
those juniors dun listen to me .
i even caught ________ sleeping inside the toilet though she claim she didn`t .
i assumed it to be the truth , shall trust her .
________ shouted at me !
he say ,
build chair build chair larhhs .
so damn du lan of him .
nvm .
dun say liaos .
anyways ,
our patrol was the first to collapse .
just dat we nv report nia :X
haha .
3 bombs attack ziqian .
n dere goes our tent , boundary & clothes line .
wa haha .
last group to keep all the equipments also have to be bombed .
sad to say ,
we are also the last patrol to keep our equipments due to lack of people .
dey dun wan to co-operate ,
i also cannot do anything .
shout at them also gt no use .
tgt with patrol a ,
we were BOMBED by those water bombs .
so damn pain larhhs .
but had so much fun .
yee , yiting , jiamin , jinwei , gabriel .
all aim me !
RAWR
meiyin & meizi also got .
LOL .
den sir also larhhs .
hahaha !
den play play play lorhhs .
den release around 1.35 .
sec 3s had to stay back for the first class camp thingy .
i was msging while he was talking :X
den dismissal at 2.3o .
SAD LARHHS !
i put my PE shirt & my praying thing at school .
nobody help me takeeeeeee ~
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
monday go c still haf anot .
dun haf jiu can cry liaos .
T-T

den ,
met the online seller at je .
so sorry dat i`ve forget we meeting at 2.3o .
but sir released us at 2.3o ..
make her come je .
so so sorry .
gt my white heart necklace lers :D
nt dat nice .
hai hao .
went to kobayashi with yiting & jiamin .
ate & have fun .
haha .
den jiu train-ed to bukit batok .
went westmall walk walk
&&& go madddd ~
ah haha !
so damn funny larhhs .

after dat bus-ed home with jiamin .
met my sister at bus stop .
accompanied her go shell to buy things .
she said she was hungry .
LOL .
lameshit ! :D
walked home together .
& told my father about the thing .
he said he will give me a new one later .
the thing i lost cost around few hundred bahhs :X
sad larhhs .
with me so long liaos den i lost it T-T

mother`s day coming !
13.o5 .
gonna get present for her !
anyways ,
i`ve gt a shirt for my father long time ago :X
if i bought something for my mother .
den my wish would be fulfiled ! :D
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

gonna bathe now .
so dirty , smelly & wet :X :X :X
haha ! (:
going to do a maths again .
i didn`t do any ytd :X

a maths & e maths tuition tml ! :D
after dat ,
going JE library with yiting .
go find book for courseworkkkkkkkkkkk ~
sians ! (:

shall end here .
ciaos ! :D

i`m trying to be happier each day ,
trying very very hard .
i dunno if u really got look at me .
happy to know that too .
but nt so sure .
i just hope dat u could msg me on my birthday .
&&& i`ll be damn happy till i fly .
i rmb u send me birthday msg last year .
so happy till i could fly .
:X
haha .
but tinking ,
it`s all in the past .
Sigh ..

it was a tiring day for me today ,
though i slept at 12 last night .

morning as usual ,
raise flag .
den jiu gt chinese lesson .
chiong zuo ye n hand up to ms ker .
cause i dun wan to bring it home (:

den physics ,
went to library .
do physics homework with tablet pc .
EEEEEE .
i dun lyk tablet pc .
very difficult to use .

lesson time past very fast .
den jiu maths .
gt back maths test .
fail !
8/25 ..
gonna buck up .
den jiu recess .
ms wong hen hao !
she teach me geometry as i didn`t went sch last week .
and dis mon & tues .
finally i understand wat`s geometry .

den english .
oral conversation .
was so damn boring :X
den gt 2 sec ones .
come our class .
ask pple go check up .
yup .
i went !

had backbone screening test .
&&& good luck to me .
my backbone worsennnnnn ~

its 5 degree and 3 degree :X
need to be review nxt year in school .
sians .

den school ends (:
went to find ms chin for my hp .
she help me keep .
went bugis after dat .

reach dere at around 2 .
bought passionfruit soda freeze with coconut jelly + pearls :D
den went to yoshinoya .
ate salmon rice bowl !
so yum yum larhhs .
better than the teriyaki chicken .
but i still lyk kobayashi more :X

den went to kinokuniya .
ting bought 5566 play magazine .
haha .
after dat ,
we went to take neoprints .
so funny larhhs !
ah hahahaha :X
it`s the first neoprint dat we 2 took together .

we did take neoprint b4 ,
but is with other people :D
gt quite a few neoprint to scan .
but i`m so super lazy larhhs !

den went to mac ,
met up with the online seller .
gt my 3D heart charm necklace lers ! :D
nice nice (:
den train-ed to bukit batok .
during the trips ,
i saw 2 girls .
dunno is 1 girl or 1 boy or 2 girls .
i believed dat dey are lesbians .
so disgusting larhhsss !
dey wanted to kiss each other .
summre hugging leh .
EEEEEE ~

went westmall ,
go popular to find my a maths assessment book .
but nv c .
tml going je c if gt anot ..
reach home around 5.o6 ..
n i`m blogging here now .

gonna take a bath soon .
follow by dinner ,
n i shall do my a maths !
shall sleep early today .
as dere`s scouts meeting tomorrow .

attire : half scout u .
bring extra clothinggggggg (:
hope we`ll haf fun tml ! :D

give me some time ,
and i`ll soon be fine .
i promise ..
Sigh ..

my light pink 3D heart charm necklace (:

things to do / homework for dis weekend :

1) physics ws .
2) SS webquest .
3) E Maths exercise .
4) A Maths exercise .
5) F&N Coursework .
6) Geography Workbook (till now still haven`t do :X)

i just know something dat i`ll never wish to know .
how i wish i could just be kept in the dark .
but dis wun do me any good .
it`s better to know everything now .
its better to be hurt now den in the future .
i dun wan to fall even deeper n deeper .
the truth always hurt .
but dere is no running away for it .
no matter how much u run away ,
end up u also must face the consequences .
life`s just like dat .
dere`s happy times .
n dere`s sad times too .
for mine is mostly all sad ders bahhs .

actually i ownself also dunno .
i dunno how to pick myself up n walk again .

刚放弃一段上新的感情，
又来了一个我根本也没想到的东西。
不是没想过，
只是没想到会这么早就发生，
我不知道要怎样爬起来，
不想去面对这个残酷的事实。
但是，
如果我不去面对，
我所受到的伤害会比现在还多，
可是，
我真得不懂要怎样做才好。
我真得不懂 。。。
放弃是一定要，
但是我不懂要怎样！
伤害是一定会有。
我不想哭，
可是不知道为什么眼泪会自己掉下来。
是应该伤心，
还是快乐？
我已经一次又一次的被伤害，
也许这是我应得的吧．
我可以让人开心，
但是我却不能让我自己开心，
我不知道要怎样去面对．
这对我来说，
根本不是一种不正常的事，
我已经习惯了．
可是，还是会有怪怪的感觉。

i`m glad dat i`m not kept in the dark .
i dun wan to be a stupid ________
no matter wat ,
life still haf to go on .
i just need to figure out wat i should do for my nxt step .
but i really dun wish to tink anymore .
just hope dat dere`s someone to guide me along thru my life .
den i need nt do anything .
but dat`s impossible .

dun b guilty ,
it`s nt ur fault .
everything starts from me .
i`m the source .
it has nth to do with u .

i dunno whr to pick myself up .
i just haf to depend on myself .
Sigh ..

haha .
realised dat i`ve been blogging everyday ever since i gt my internet connection at my new house :D
dis blog has been around since feb o5'
when i`m only a sec one (:
haha .
so it`s 2 years , 2 months & a few days old now .
didn`t post as much as now .
only blog once a week ,
or once a month during the past years :D
dis post is the 346th !
haha (:

anyways ,
it`s the 2nd day of school for me today .
sch was alright .
didn`t fell asleep as much as i did ytd .
haha .
slept at 1 + ytd .
woke up at 5.5o .
i overslept !
but it`s thursday today .
and school starts late !
bathe ,
and ate breakfast .
its still only 6.3o AM .
went up and prepared ,
left home at 6.4o AM .
mummy send me n didi go school .
my sisters are still on MC .
so good .
reach cheers at around 6.55 .
waited for yiting ,
and she came at 7.32 (:
sort of attitude her as i waited so long .
but it`s my fault larhhs .
cause i meet her at 7.3o .

reach school at around 7.4o .
the weather`s so super hot .
went parade square at around 8.2o .
wa haha .
lessons started at 8.45 ..
2 periods of POA ,
teach new chapter .
nt really understand .
slept awhile :X

den 3 periods english .
slept awhile too .
lessons on oral communication .
taking oral on monday .
after english jiu recess .
didn`t went down .
talked to dolphinnnnnnnnnnnn :D

2 periods of chinese .
so boring .
was eatingggg :X
thought teacher nv c .
den end up ,
end of lesson .
teacher say .
wanning , bu yao zai tou chi dong xi lers larhhs !
damn ma lu can ?
T-T

den CEP ,
ms chin reprimand our class .
we stand at dere give her scold .
she scold de hen dui eh actually ..
she said 75% of our class gonna retain .
i hope wun .
she said gomez is looking closely at 3n2 , 3n3 ..
dunno wat she means .
maybe gt spot check bahhs !

den assembly .
damn boredddddddddd :D
fell asleep :X
release at 2.15 .
suppose want go find ms wong ask her teach me geometry .
but cnt find her so forget it :X
went jp with tingggg,
lai lai kitchen .
eat & had loads of fun .
bought bubble tea & trained to bukit batok .
parted ,
and i took a bus home ! :D
reach home around 4.3o .
bathe and came blogging here ! (:
ah haha .
exams are round the corner .
mother tongue cluster paper on 3o.4 .
so damn fast can ?
followed by mt listening on may 4th i tink .
nxt monday having english oral .
AHHHHHH ~
just hope i wun flunk jiu can lers .
gonna start mugging :D
i may be online ,
but i`m studying ok (:
guai kia !
hahaha !

oh ya ,
my poor adidas watch snapped !
RAWR .
gonna get it repair as soon as possible ,
when i gt the time .
pacific plaza at orcharddddddddd .
SO SO FAR ! :@

going bugis tomorrow .
meeting online seller for 3D heart charm ! (:

shall end here .
a long post (:

i dun wish to care u .
but i dunno y my heart wants to care .
hais .
dun ask me y .
bcox i myself also dunno wat i`m doing .
&&amp;& i miss ________ ! :D

today`s a tiring day for me .
loads of things for me to catch up .
i`m still lyk a slow poke behind .

morning as usual ,
lyk other weds n fri .
pull flag lorhhs .
pull dao hen man .
bcox bside me de person nv tell me wat to do ..
so i just ownself use eyes c lorhhs .
den first 3 periods english .
keep on fall asleep .
cause i slept at 1 am ytd nite ..
so damn tired ..

den chemistry .
dun even understand any single thing .
so blur abt it .
AHHHHHHH ~
cause our class owe ms chin time on monday from wat i know ..
chemistry lesson eat into our recess tym .
didn`t went for recess .
stayed back in class as usual ..

after dat .
jiu f&n lers ..
had protein test .
confirm flunk .
nv copy fats de notes .
since she say gt wat jiu hand up wat .
den fine .
coursework by monday .
hais .
still gt ws need to do ..

den maths .
dun even know wat she talking also .
ms wong say tml teach wo .
ask me stay back (:
good teacher ! :D

den ss .
i still haven`t do the ss .
webquest due by friday .
dun even know when can do ..
hais .

dis sunday ,
i think i going out to borrow books on recipes n fibre .
nt sure .
but most probably i will go :D

i`m so tired .
bones going to break liddat .
hais .
T-T

save me ,
i`ve had enough of pangseh .
pangseh here .
pangseh dere.
hais .
today first day go back school .
felt so weird .
dunno y also .
felt so left out .
hais .



didn`t blog ytd .
dunno y also .
anyways ,
went online shopping and saw alot of things which i wanted .
put dem in my wish list .
and i`m going to get dem .
going to order .
den meet up and pay (:

i`m going to be oh SO SO broke .
haha :D
but nvm .
treat it as a reward bahhs .
(:

gonna go school tomorrow .
haf to catch up alot alot alot !
just hope dat i can pass my exams .
with flying colours .
gonna pay attention in class and nt fall asleep :X
haha !

seriously i dunno wat u wan .
we care u .
u bu shuang us .
we dun care u .
u jiu say nobody care u .
hais .
sumtyms really bu xiang care .
budden dunno y still will go ask abt u .
care u .
dunno larhhs .
hais .

hope everything will be fine ! :D
going back school tml .
wheeeeee .
can c ___________________ (:

CHEERS ! :D


haven`t blog for today .
previous post was during midnight .
haha .
dunno wat happen .
my eyes is so blur today .
damn blur .
put eyedrops lers .
but still blur .
hais ..

did alot of lame things today .
shall nt say out (:
holidays for me again .
sians .
how am i going to cope when i go back to school ?
headache .
hais .
i`ve so much things to buy on my shopping list .
shall get them during the june holidays .
when i go for my shopping spree .
i really hope i got time to go for a shopping spree !
it has been a really long time since i buy things .
and shopping .
i want to shop ; shop and shop !
i want this &&& that ! (:

I MISS YOU LARHHS !
wanted to do a maths .
but my eyes are so blur ..
how to do ?
i think i should go rest for now .
go sleep (:
nites everybody ! :D

just happened to browse through photos that were taken last year .
during the sentosa trip .
yup .
it`s dat trip .
but now everything is gone !
yeah .

&&& i miss last year chalet !
swimming swimming swimming !
loads of fun larhhs .
think about it .
it has been a long time since i last went to sentosa .

my birthday`s coming too .
in about 1 month 1 day time .
yeah .
so so so ,
i hope i can celebrate my birthday at sentosa .
as i have not have much fun since school reopen .
i just want to play until i go bonkers !
ah haha !

hint hint hint *
dunno who to go with .
hmms .
it`s still quite long time away .
yup .

i began to realise that our distance is getting further and further .
from close ~> not dat close ~> and now . we dun even talk at all .
hais .
i dunno how to salvage this situation .
wat can i do ?
i think i also dunno bahhs .
zou yi bu ; suan yi bu bahhs .

i suddenly miss school so much .
it`s the first time dat i miss school .
haha !
weird bahhs ..
there`s still a lot of things not yet done .
and my eyes .
it`s still not improving .
but at least .
it`s not so red .
but still red larhhs .
hais .
wat can i do to it ?
just let it be bahhs .
AHHHHH ~

everything seems so close .
but when you realise it .
it`s not as close as you think .
hmms .
(: just let it be bahhs !

CHEERS ! :D


HATE HATE HATE HATE !
RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR !
HMPFS HMPFS HMPFS !

ok done ,
i`m done wif my madness :D

I WON`T CARE YOU ANYMORE !
RAWR !
AHHHHHHH !
:@ :@


AHHHHHHHHH !
i`m so damn BORING larhhs .
cnt go out !
cause of my sore eyessssssssssssssss .
RAWR !
i wonder when my eyes will heal ?
i miss school !
i miss him too ! :X

yay !
i`ve gt no mre fever .
but .
my eyes still the same .
no improvement at all ..
my sister and mother also tio sore eyes .
SORRY !
i tink is i spread de bahhs .
obviously .
hope dey will get well soon .
&&& same to me :D
and dolphin (:

penguin`s my dog !
dolphin`s my pet :D
haha !

CB LA .
we care u n dis is wat we got ?
HUH ?
u say nobody care u .
den we go care u .
den u gib us ?
attitude ?
HUH ?
DU LAN FCUK !

just nw went to c a doctor .
dis saturday cnt go scouts meeting .
or the campfire le .
sians ah !
my eyes .
so damn red lorhhs .
still having a fever .
from 37.7 ~> 37.9 ~> 38.2 ~> 38.4 ~> 38.8 ~> 39 ..
now is around 38 like dat.
38.1 ..
hais ..
RAWR !
but luckily i never vomit le ..
just nw 11+ slp .
slp until around 4 + .
woke up .
my eyes cnt open !
so damn pain lorhhs .
nw also very pain ..
hais .
i hope i can recover soon .
if nt nxt wk i no need to go sch liaos ..
T-T

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
ytd i only gt 1 sore eye .
today i gt 2 !
both eyes are red in colour .
right eye damn REDDDDDDDD ~
ytd nite cnt slp .
keep on wake up .
but eyes cnt open .
FCUKKKKK !
dis morning wake up .
i realised dat i`ve a fever .
and the temperature has been increasingggggg .
frm 37.7 ~ 37.9 .
my stomach nt feeling well .
no appetite .
bu xiang eat at all .
i tink i gonna spend my weekends on bed le bahhs .
SICK SICK SICK .
probably going to the doctor later again .
i feel lyk vomitting .
dis is so shit can ?!
RAWR !

i`m going to have a long weekend .
MC for 2 days .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
i got sore eyes larhhs .
my class quite alot tio .
haha !
good ? or nt good ?
i dunno :D
my eyes hurts lyk ^$@^$ N&$ .
just woke up .
before slping .
my eyes half red nia .
after i woke up .
is totally red lorhhs .
cnt open too .
today didn`t eat much .
ate abit nia .
nt feeling well .
hais .
just change my blogskin .
but still gt problems .
gonna amend it tml .
nw cnt .
i shall take a bath and den slp :D
nites !

NEMOMOMOMOMO!
i miss him larhhs ! T-T

i`m seriously tired of those pangseh .
those coldness .
just leave me alone bahhs .
我累了 ..
dun care lers .
just let it b bahhs .

skipped recess + dinner today .
dun even haf the mood to eat .
i`m going to fall into depression .
as days passed ..
i`ll tear apart .

let my gastric dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
hais T-T

hais ..
i`m crying ..
i dunno wat happen to me ..
dis few days ..
hais ..
with all those sucky results ..
i`ve gt no mre mood to study ..
PANGSEH PANGSEH !
can u all at least try to care for me a little ?
and nt always leave me out ?
CAN ?
DUN ALWAYS PANGSEH ME CAN ?
knw hw lonely i feel nw ?
i dun even haf sumone to talk to ..
perhaps only gt penguin and dolphin bahhs ..
nobody even care for me ..
nobody ..
everybody is just on their own ..
and me ?
just a subsitute ..
no friends jiu come find me ..
gt friend jiu throw me far aside ..
wat do u treat me as ?
shit ?
HUH ?
我只需要一个人来关心我 ..
谁愿意做那个人 ?
i dun tink gt anyone bahhs ..
hais ..

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE BAHHS .
EVERYBODY FCUK OFF !


hais .
so stress up ..
dis few days mood also nt very gd ..
today no need to slp le ..
hais !
had tuition today ..
finish 1 chapter of a maths ..
&&& inequalities from e maths ..
need to get a maths 1o years series by nxt wk ..
my papa wanted to get me a new fone instead of a hp cover .
i ask him to buy a hp cover ..
but he wan to get me a hp instead ..
went to c just now ..
but no fone i lyk de ..
gt 1 N73 ..
in front white behind pink ..
but i nt interested in it ..
den he wan buy W88oi for me ..
but i dun wan ..
i just want to have the same fone as u ..
my mother got Z61oi ..
while my father got N73 ..
i tink he gonna get the N95 too ..
just came back frm outside .
went to eat .
yum yum !
currently working on coursework ..
hao xiang pon sch ..
hais ..
i`m so tired ..
i need a break ..

爱你真的好难啊 ！

hais .
having gastric pain now .
just came back frm the campfire .
no comments for it .
i cried just now .
my stomach is giving me way too much of problems .
should i go for a medical health check up ?
maybe .
i think i cnt take it anymore .
i going to fall sick soon .
yeah .
it`s like very soon .
cause i gt 6th sense :D

busy weekend .
time was spent all on scouts today .
TIRING ~
gonna have tuition tml .
tired !

i`ve still like gt tons of homework yet to be done .

1 ` geography wb
2 ` f&n wb
3 ` chinese zuo ye
4 ` f&n coursework
5 ` eng passion compo
6 ` eng common test correction
7 ` geography webquest
8 ` loads of filing
9 ` copy f&n notes
1o ` chemistry test
11 ` maths test
12 ` physics test .

HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ~
i still gt my own notes yet to be copied .
gonna go home everyday after school after eating .
hope i will nt be addicted to the computer .
i will try to keep away frm it as much as possible .

爱一个人真的好辛苦啊 !
trying to avoid ?
maybe ..