i m sad..

once again..

ever since i n him break le..

i nv ever smile once..

everytime c me happy happy..

all is fake de..

my heart is actually crying..

but..

dis kind of thing is all fate de..

god planned everything..

god doesn't wan me n him to be together..

let it be..

though i m sad abt it..

he should be happy bahx..

haix..

feel like crying again..

i haf change le..

i haf realli realli change alot le..

i dun haf mood swings de..

not even once..

but now..

alot of times..

i dunno y..

sometimes jux haf de..

haix..

='(=(..

no choice lorhx..

since we r not fated to be together..

let it be..

my heart is aching..

ferr him de:

dun break my heart once & again..

u promise not to break it..

but u still break it..

i m very very fragile..

very very..

u everydae c me happy..

is all fake de..

haix..

anywaes..

u wan to wait ferr me or dun wan to wait le..

i dun care le..

do wat u wan to do..

i wun care much le..

u choose to find another stead or wateva..

i also dun care le..

u do wateva things u like to do bahx..

dun need to care me le..

i know dat u haf nv eva like me b4..

i know dat..

dun need to deceive me..

i can c de..

u promise to wait ferr me..

is JUX A LIE!

PLS STOP LYING TO ME!

i m very fragile..

dun break my heart..

dun break it..

i jux recover..

n ferr now..

it will take ages to recover..

from the pain..

i dun mind if u lie to me..

i jux wanna know if u haf realli love me b4..

dun lie to me..

i wan truth..

if u be with me is jux ferr fun de..

den..

i haf nth to sae..

gif me ur reply..

either thru email or my tagbox..

i dunno y i m crying again..

when i typing the words ferr him..

i dunno y..

y m i alwaes crying?

when can i stop?

tears jux flow down..

n my heart is aching..

over & over..

i m sho sad..

i m deeply hurt..

hurt..

perhaps not by u..

i dunno..

ur father?

i dunno..

i m sorry to break the promise ferr not saying break..

but..

i m left wif no choice..

u can hate me.. beat me.. scold me.. do anything u wan..

i wun mind de..

as i haf break the promise..

i m a bad gal..

sobx sobx sobx ='(

dis fri campfire i think i nt going le..

i m not in the mood to go..

go also will end up crying when i c him..

i dunno how m i going to survive when sch re open..

it were be an awkward if we c each other..

ferr sure..

n he will avoid me..

like last time he did..

haix..

as i said..

do wateva u wan bahx..

i dun care u le..

haix..

buaix..

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