somehow.
i don`t know whether have i given up le.
yes or no?
it`s like.
the feeling is here.
not here.
here.
not here.
then it faded.
then it come back to me again.
very very stress.
when i see __ & ___
my heart got a very weird feeling.
same as when i see ____ & ____
my heart also got a very weird feeling.
i wonder why.
though i know that ___ is always with boys.
but i also will have this kind of very weird feeling.
i don`t know what kind of feeling is this.
i don`t know whether can i cope with my studies.
is like.
so stress.
though i am in 3e4.
but the stress.
is like.
also same de.
somehow.
i feel like cutting again.

am i too stress until i am sick?
i don`t know.
i haven been eating this few days.
jiu suan got eat.
also end up in toilet.
why?
because i vomit every meal.
even taking medicine.
i also will vomit like mad.
i`ve lose like.
a total of 2 kg.
in just shortly this few days.
from last weds till nw.
it`s like.
one week?

yup.
no appetite.
i don`t feel like eating.
i don`t feel like seeing anything.
somehow.
keep feelings in heart may seems to be difficult.
but when you are used to it.
everything may not seem so.
now i may still not be used to it.
but as time goes by.
i will slowly get used to everything.

what i can only do now is study.
study & study & study.
studies are more important now.
especially when i am in sec 3 this year.
there might be a chance that i`ll either drop or retain.
i don`t want that to happen.
i just want to successfully promote to sec 4 next year.
take my o levels.
pass & go into a good jc.

all this.
by saying doesn`t mean anything.
to achieve it.
hard work is needed.
i shall not slack anymore.
from this moment onwards.
i shall concentrate on my studies.
1oo% heart on it.
like that.
maybe i can also forgot those unhappiness in my heart.

i shall forget _______ & _______ in my heart.
hope it can be as soon as possible.
like that.
i don`t need to suffer anymore.
and wishes to ______ & ______
hope you all can have a good stead.
but.
now is also study time.
just remember to make a clear line in between personal problems & study problems.
yup.
especially ______.
this year you have an important exam.
those words that you say last time.
like what you won`t have anymore stead.
i`m last.
i`ll just take it that you never said it before.
so yup.
like i say before.
i`ll give you my blessings.

and so yupppp.
:D
i am done with posting.
& seriously.
i felt better.
i shall come blog again when i`m feeling down.
nah.
just joking.
i`ll blog as soon as possible.
&&& i`ve got loads of pictures to be uploaded.
but i`m just plain lazy.

as i`m a PIG.
like what my friends say.
studies are much more important. :D
&&& also.
thanks to dar dar. laopo. meiix meiix. god dar dar. yee. fen mien. pei yi. huiwen.
&& past. yongren. jacemon. mingsheng.
&&& still got those people who are not mentioned here.
thanks for your kind advice.
i finally xiang tong le. :D

so now.
i shall be back to my cheerful & happy life.
be a HAPPY (^(00)^)
ah hahahas. :D

SUPPORT me. (:
hahahas.

HAPPY & HAPPY & HAPPY NING.
GET HIGH. ^^