Thursday, April 12, 2007 ♥
hais . ♥ 10:01 PM
i just know something dat i`ll never wish to know .how i wish i could just be kept in the dark .but dis wun do me any good .it`s better to know everything now .its better to be hurt now den in the future .i dun wan to fall even deeper n deeper .the truth always hurt .but dere is no running away for it .no matter how much u run away ,end up u also must face the consequences .life`s just like dat .dere`s happy times .n dere`s sad times too .for mine is mostly all sad ders bahhs .actually i ownself also dunno .i dunno how to pick myself up n walk again .刚放弃一段上新的感情,又来了一个我根本也没想到的东西。不是没想过,只是没想到会这么早就发生,我不知道要怎样爬起来,不想去面对这个残酷的事实。但是,如果我不去面对,我所受到的伤害会比现在还多,可是,我真得不懂要怎样做才好。我真得不懂 。。。放弃是一定要,但是我不懂要怎样!伤害是一定会有。我不想哭,可是不知道为什么眼泪会自己掉下来。是应该伤心,还是快乐?我已经一次又一次的被伤害,也许这是我应得的吧.我可以让人开心,但是我却不能让我自己开心,我不知道要怎样去面对.这对我来说,根本不是一种不正常的事,我已经习惯了.可是,还是会有怪怪的感觉。i`m glad dat i`m not kept in the dark .i dun wan to be a stupid ________no matter wat ,life still haf to go on .i just need to figure out wat i should do for my nxt step .but i really dun wish to tink anymore .just hope dat dere`s someone to guide me along thru my life .den i need nt do anything .but dat`s impossible .dun b guilty ,it`s nt ur fault .everything starts from me .i`m the source .it has nth to do with u .i dunno whr to pick myself up .i just haf to depend on myself .Sigh ..